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my name will be in lights. jules brielle.

Drink to all that we have lost, mistakes we have made.
Everything will change, but love remains the same.
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Julia Stanek >< Mnemosyne [June 26 2029 / 04:44pm]
Oh, will you wait till I get back home again
‘Cause I’m willing to give this another chance
Only you baby keep me up at night
Sometimes crazy’s all right

Well I never thought I’d say I was in love with you again
It’s funny how my life has come around to this
And I’m crazy for you
I do like crazy girls do )
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[July 14 2028 / 05:53pm]
storylines. )
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September 3rd -- 4:35 pm EST (Atlanta) [September 03 2009 / 05:33pm]
After this.

I love my boyfriend. Very much.

Cal.
I love you. What are the flowers for?
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September 2nd -- 1:05 pm EST (Atlanta) [September 02 2009 / 12:50pm]
Okay, so weird stuff. Had a tabloid guy of some sort ask me a few questions today out at brunch. Annoying? A little, since they were all about Cal, but Cal and me, but the really weird part? He used my real last name, Stanek. Most of my friends don't even use that - don't even know it, a few of them. I haven't used that name since I lived in Yermo. I introduce myself to everyone I know as Jules Brielle. I even did that with Cal.

Maybe I should make it a legal change. It's on every last bit of work I've ever done, modeling or acting. Every one of my friends knows me as it. It won't take very long or cost very much at all.

Although, I would love to be a Harwood. I could do that. Jules Harwood. Even professionally. I don't think he's ever going to ask again, though. I watch his face when the press wonders if we'll marry. I think it's more than just distaste at the paparazzi's obsession with him. Maybe I have to ask?
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August 28th -- 2:13 pm EST [Atlanta] [August 28 2009 / 04:19pm]
After this.

Sofia.
I. Hate. You.
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August 27th -- 3:34 pm EST (Atlanta) [August 27 2009 / 05:55pm]
Sofia.
OMGOMGOMG. Cal just came home early and caught me mast fing tou ma touching mys masturbating touching myself...
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August 18th -- 5:49 pm EST (Atlanta) [August 18 2009 / 05:31pm]
Private.
Laurel Morgan. Laurel. Laurel Morgan Harwood. I like it. Now to keep myself from spilling it to everyone...
/Private.

Private to Emma, Sofia, Deanna, and Scotty.
It's amazing how much better one night can make someone feel. My mom's got health complications and Cal's got a son and it feels like the whole world just keeps throwing problem after problem at us, but I know we're okay and whatever happens, things are going to be okay. I just hope I can stay feeling this way I've just missed him so much, even though I've been in the same house/apartment with him this whole time. It's nice to be reminded that he loves me despite this all.
/Private.
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August 11th -- 7:47 pm EST (Atlanta) [August 11 2009 / 05:31pm]
Private to Sofia, Emma, and Deanna.
Cal has a Rebecca has Cal's Cal and Rebecca have a son.

I've never wanted alcohol more badly in my life than I do now. Or that one diet-pill that released endorphins, too. Better than sex when I was upset. Pop a handful of those down and not only are you not hungry for a day or two, but you're in such an unbelievably good mood Bad thoughts. Must not have those thoughts.
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August 9th -- 4:47 pm CST (Los Angeles) [August 10 2009 / 12:09am]
Private.
What, can no one in this entire fricking COUNTRY be entirely faithful to one person? I mean, COME ON! I can't deal with this, not on top of Cal acting weird. We're going home Tuesday. She can't just spring this on me randomly and expect me to just be able to deal with it like nothing ever happened! Like she didn't just change everything!

She probably did this on purpose, to get me to stop worrying about her cancer. It's not going to work. I'm still going to insist she move closer.

But God gah! This just isn't right!
/Private.

Ever think you had your entire view of someone figured out, only to have the entire thing flipped upside down by one simple discovery?
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August 8th -- 11:59 pm CST (Los Angeles) [August 08 2009 / 10:08pm]
Private. Sofia, Emma, and Deanna can see and reply.
I love my husb boyfriend. Why do I always catch myself thinking of him as my husb Cal's sleeping now and I'm in my mom's living room listening to the radio while surfing the internet. A lot of our nights end that way, I think, even at home. Him passed out, and me zoned out. It's so odd how much more sleep he needs than me. He's out earlier and up later, dragging his feet when I wake him, too. We're different in a lot of ways, actually. From accents to sleeping habits. (And I'm not necessarily complaining, as I will not stop melting when his British accent comes out really strong and he calls me love and--okay, I have to stop or I'll really wnat sex and he has issues with sex in my mother's house, unfortunately.) But seriously, he and I are the prime example of opposites attract. He's loud, often a bit vulgar, a very masculine creature. He's rather insensitive and an enormous ass. He can be confrontational and his emotions are almost always entirely unchecked. I'm not necessarily "quiet," but I can be shy and I'm not him. I never, ever swear, and I'm pretty feminine and girly a lot of the time. I try to be sensitive and tactful, sometimes to a fault I will admit as it leads me to being somewhat of a doormat. I've even learned to school my emotions in almost every situation, except with him. Even when I'm with Dee or Sofi I Nevermind, they can read this. He can usually see right through me, so I don't really try around him anymore. Maybe that's a good sign. But are we really compatible? I often debate making him sign up for one of those dating sites with me to see if we'd be matched. Probably not, honestly.

I don't know why I'm thinking about this all. The radio show host was talking about opposites attract and how successful those (these?) types of relationships can be, and about whether finding a mate like you that you can relate to if a better idea. A lot of the callers and research is saying that apparently people are better off the more in common they have. I sure hope not. I don't actually have any fears or anything about us, but after everything that we've been through, it makes me wonder sometimes. Honestly, though, thinking about everything, it really just makes me start to wonder if maybe I do believe in fate after all... He would probably laugh at that kid of thinking, but who knows... Now the radio show is discussing chicken pox. Very random.

I think there's something up with Cal that he's not telling me about. He's been acting more...reserved for a few days. I don't know what it is, because he denies it when I brought it up and I don't want to press. It's probably nothing. I'm not going to worry about it.
/Private.

I'm still in LA! Well, right outside in the suburbs. Cal and I are at my mom's. We arrived a few days ago. Cal's asleep and Mom just headed to bed, leaving a silent house. It can sometimes be creepy, but it leaves me to my own devices, which for tonight equal radio and internet.

Interesting questions for mothers parents. Or really, for anyone who wants to answer, but I'm especially interested in the opinions of people with children. It's sparked from the radio show I'm listening to. The host is discussing chicken pox.
First question: Would you get your kids vaccinated knowing there was even the tiniest chance that they could develop autism because of it. Now, I was googling and doing some research and (beyond discovering it's the MMR vaccine and not the chicken pox vaccine) apparently the evidence appears entirely coincidental or flawed, and the CDC even stated "there is no evidence to support the connection" and that one of the main studies, "the Wakefield study," is fatally flawed including that it only studied twelve children. You could read more here, if you'd like.

Anyway, so just on the hypothetical sense, since the jury's still out, would you vaccinate your child knowing there was even a very rare chance they could develop autism?

Second question: So apparently there's a new trend (although the late-thirties or early-forties host's parents and peer's parents did it, so it doesn't sound so new) to take healthy children to "pox parties" to deliberately infect them. Apparently, one child catches the chicken pox, so the parents throw a big party where other parents bring over their healthy children and they make them all play together, eat together, and possibly sleep in the same bed together to try and infect them so they can catch it and get it out of their system early on. I'm a bit torn on it as to me it sounds both like a clever idea and totally insane at the same time. I'm not sure. But I wanted to know what everyone else thinks. Would you ever do take your child to a pox party? Or what would you do in regards to the whole chicken pox thing?
Yes, these are the weird things I ponder when I'm the only one awake. Silent houses do these things to a person.
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